Make Me (Stay)

Make me stay

I wouldn’t want to

make me stay

I shouldn’t have to

I’ve been turned down

I’ve been turned down

I’ve been turned down

so much

make me stay

just for a moment

I saw your porchlight

on all night

but it wasn’t me

with you

make me stay

just for a moment

I want to breath you

in again

make me stay

make me stay

make me stay

with you.

I’ll record song for auditory pleasure later.


song and picture taken by and belong to Gemma Serrano.

in waves

reach out with empty hands

my skin divides,

at your command

parting words,

they’re on your mind

fall down, get up

in cycles like seasons

we’ve all lost our way

shout away

in constant fear

you’re safe

if you can heal

shout away

they cannot hear

you’re mind

it cannot heal

stranger in the light

like cold,

winter air

this life,

is all but fair

fall down, fall down.

Still your body

Am I made like a tool 

You make it seem like my body is only for you

The deeper I look into the mirror 

I get further away from calling it mine 

You can say you’ve done your job 

The only one you’ve ever kept 

To make me feel like a sinner

When you were in the wrong 

Now when I’m lonely

My mind won’t work

As well as it should be 

I think I’m ready to drown

I think I’m ready to drown

I should learn to love myself

But I don’t seem to know how

I should learn to love myself 

But I don’t seem to know how

Peine d’amour

I am floating

Tumbling around 

Empty space 

As my body contorts 

Reaching for something 

To cling onto,

My mind 

Reverts to you

Playing the samples

Of your voice inside my head.

I swear I hear your laughter

Deep and hearty 

I close my eyes and picture 

The shape of you’re bare head 

Your bristling cheeks

As my hand moves down your jawline

I twist my body around

As if my chest was to your chest

And let out a breathless gasp

As I remember the feeling

Of your hand spanning the side of my hip

All those nights ago 

When we were alone

In the bed of your truck

Far off in the distance

I feel the weight of nothingness

Begin to collapse my chest

My eyelids feel heavy

Sleepily resisting my 

Effort

To see the darkness

My mind begins to slip

And with it

The warmth of your body

And the thumps inside my chest

A last spasm 

There goes my heart.

Ongoing today

I feel so empty 

Sometimes I’m happy

But it never lasts long

With rope burns on my neck

Raise with me your hand 

My intent for your forgiveness

This life is a mine field

And I never step 

In the right place 

Oh lord I need some drugs

Oh lord I need some drugs

I want to try 

And be better 

So I can ease my heart at night 

Lord I feel so empty

my mind always escapes

To places I cannot reach

Without my permission

I need to learn

How to stop drowning

When I know how to swim

Take Away

When I showed you the book

I must have left it inside

The image of the girl you wanted

I guess it was like that

Take what you want

And hope I make it out 

I can wait 

Just let me know 

I’ll keep existing 

In a blind like state

Constantly checking 

For things to break 

My heart 

Oh I guess I could be 

What you want

But if I try 

I might sink down 

To someplace I cannot see

And I’ll still be cold 

I’ll take what I want 

I could never love you

When you’re so cruel

It hit me in the stomach

Take what you want away 

Take half of my heart away

It’s just life dear

It’s easier to hurt 

When there’s nothing to mourn

I can still be what you want 

But it wouldn’t be me