Awake, with nothing to hold

All those nights, I stay awake

Encasing my thoughts

To numb the pain

Tracing patterns, On my skin 

Finding lines

So worn and thin

Forcing my movements cause I’m scared 

Of change

Living in a fantasy

In hopes to escape my own

Blame

all those nights, I lay awake

cursing names into a sky,

Wishing it would

go away

As if the agony of being a woman,

wasn’t enough

I close my mouth, cause the truth hurts

more than the

cold display of my body

and so all those nights, I lay awake

and gently hold myself,

because you never could.

I wish this was a dream

I hate this

The way you make me feel 

It’s short and sweet

But I forgot

This was a deal

Now I hate it

I see you with them

And not with me

In a dream

I wish to be

I can not

Feel

I hate this 

And how she takes up

Your mind

Even with me 

It was short and sweet

Now I hate this 

Like I can’t keep 

You

In a dream 

I wish to be 

So I can not

Feel

Make Me (Stay)

Make me stay

I wouldn’t want to

make me stay

I shouldn’t have to

I’ve been turned down

I’ve been turned down

I’ve been turned down

so much

make me stay

just for a moment

I saw your porchlight

on all night

but it wasn’t me

with you

make me stay

just for a moment

I want to breath you

in again

make me stay

make me stay

make me stay

with you.

I’ll record song for auditory pleasure later.


song and picture taken by and belong to Gemma Serrano.

in waves

reach out with empty hands

my skin divides,

at your command

parting words,

they’re on your mind

fall down, get up

in cycles like seasons

we’ve all lost our way

shout away

in constant fear

you’re safe

if you can heal

shout away

they cannot hear

you’re mind

it cannot heal

stranger in the light

like cold,

winter air

this life,

is all but fair

fall down, fall down.

blend

its been a few months

since i last felt myself

i’m a vision

laying on the

palm of your hand

their voices

inside my head

saying things to me

now i blend myself

to fit what you believe

i’m losing touch

to be what you need

i’m not you

so i’m through

i’ll feed you the truth

now i blend myself

to fit what you believe

losing touch

to be what you need

please, go away.