I wish this was a dream

I hate this

The way you make me feel 

It’s short and sweet

But I forgot

This was a deal

Now I hate it

I see you with them

And not with me

In a dream

I wish to be

I can not

Feel

I hate this 

And how she takes up

Your mind

Even with me 

It was short and sweet

Now I hate this 

Like I can’t keep 

You

In a dream 

I wish to be 

So I can not

Feel

blend

its been a few months

since i last felt myself

i’m a vision

laying on the

palm of your hand

their voices

inside my head

saying things to me

now i blend myself

to fit what you believe

i’m losing touch

to be what you need

i’m not you

so i’m through

i’ll feed you the truth

now i blend myself

to fit what you believe

losing touch

to be what you need

please, go away.

Ongoing today

I feel so empty 

Sometimes I’m happy

But it never lasts long

With rope burns on my neck

Raise with me your hand 

My intent for your forgiveness

This life is a mine field

And I never step 

In the right place 

Oh lord I need some drugs

Oh lord I need some drugs

I want to try 

And be better 

So I can ease my heart at night 

Lord I feel so empty

my mind always escapes

To places I cannot reach

Without my permission

I need to learn

How to stop drowning

When I know how to swim