Again

once again

i find myself lost,

lost in the eyes of a man

who does not love me back

once again

i find myself lost,

lost in spaces that i can

no longer go to

…lest the thought of you occurs

no longer can i sleep

for the fear of losing you

rips me apart from the inside out

but my poor mind…

my poor heart…

fails to see that

i could never lose you,

when you were never mine to begin with

once again,

i find myself

lending my body

to fill the empty void in his heart

once again,

i find myself

unable to keep him

in my arms.

I wish this was a dream

I hate this

The way you make me feel 

It’s short and sweet

But I forgot

This was a deal

Now I hate it

I see you with them

And not with me

In a dream

I wish to be

I can not

Feel

I hate this 

And how she takes up

Your mind

Even with me 

It was short and sweet

Now I hate this 

Like I can’t keep 

You

In a dream 

I wish to be 

So I can not

Feel

Make Me (Stay)

Make me stay

I wouldn’t want to

make me stay

I shouldn’t have to

I’ve been turned down

I’ve been turned down

I’ve been turned down

so much

make me stay

just for a moment

I saw your porchlight

on all night

but it wasn’t me

with you

make me stay

just for a moment

I want to breath you

in again

make me stay

make me stay

make me stay

with you.

I’ll record song for auditory pleasure later.


song and picture taken by and belong to Gemma Serrano.

blend

its been a few months

since i last felt myself

i’m a vision

laying on the

palm of your hand

their voices

inside my head

saying things to me

now i blend myself

to fit what you believe

i’m losing touch

to be what you need

i’m not you

so i’m through

i’ll feed you the truth

now i blend myself

to fit what you believe

losing touch

to be what you need

please, go away.

Ongoing today

I feel so empty 

Sometimes I’m happy

But it never lasts long

With rope burns on my neck

Raise with me your hand 

My intent for your forgiveness

This life is a mine field

And I never step 

In the right place 

Oh lord I need some drugs

Oh lord I need some drugs

I want to try 

And be better 

So I can ease my heart at night 

Lord I feel so empty

my mind always escapes

To places I cannot reach

Without my permission

I need to learn

How to stop drowning

When I know how to swim

Three Charms


The shadows bend

To the shape of your mouth

Years go by

And the ice has melted

There’s three of you

I feel confused

I’m not sure I know what I want

I’m not sure you know that you want me

I wished you could stay

I wish you would call

I wish you were strong enough to hold me

Truth be told,

My heart’s a little heavy

If I come back to you

I don’t think I’ll make it through.