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Awake, with nothing to hold

All those nights, I stay awake

Encasing my thoughts

To numb the pain

Tracing patterns, On my skin 

Finding lines

So worn and thin

Forcing my movements cause I’m scared 

Of change

Living in a fantasy

In hopes to escape my own

Blame

all those nights, I lay awake

cursing names into a sky,

Wishing it would

go away

As if the agony of being a woman,

wasn’t enough

I close my mouth, cause the truth hurts

more than the

cold display of my body

and so all those nights, I lay awake

and gently hold myself,

because you never could.

A dream

Refreshing pages

Hoping there is more,

But disappointed

When nothing changes

The pages stay empty

Like your name on my phone

Used and forgotten

You pass me around

“Give it a go,” you said

You’re so easily disposed

On to the next 

But you never asked

For consent

You never asked me at all

I’m still tracing

Watching for lines

That remind me of your back 


just a draft.

Deep

A breakage 

Swimming under water

My mother and father

Breathe in new 

So I don’t have to lose

Sift through

Into the empty

Sinking through

To the middle of the earth

Light escapes

A breach ahead

A taste so fresh 

With you

Youuuuuuu


Your rehearsed reaction

Is violent through

And through 

Such a sweet disaster

If only he could

Find you

And you’ll stay

In my head

I shatter

Underneath your flame 

Cause I’m waiting for

I’m waiting for

Oh won’t you say it’s fine 

Cause I’m reaching for you

In this empty space

Please let me change your mind

March

breakage 

Swimming under water

My mother and father

Breathe in new 

So I don’t have to lose

Sift through

Into the empty

Sinking through

To the middle of the earth

Light escapes

A breach ahead

A taste so fresh 

A life without you

Late at night

Got a hard feeling

You kept me at 

Arms length

So I don’t question

Why you’re always late

Subtle unrest

And I don’t feel enough

To hold you

When times get rough

We both blink

And time goes by

I still think 

about you all the time 

I still wait 

For your reply